The Forgotten

They say what goes around comes around. Well I have been getting that a lot I think at least from past an year. SO! 
what has been happening in this past year, firstly I lost someone who was not only my creator but my soul reason to survive on this planet. Have been getting into all the shit possible. Drugs, alcohol, smoking and what not. But I have even had a good time. 


I have seen what I am capable of doing and what not? I have been trying to make a family for myself and have been trying to fill the void that is there in my chest. But it just seems to be that whatever I try to do to keep myself from drowning, keeps bring and pulling me down. I am just a 21 year old who had or has (I don't even know anymore) big dreams. But now I just keeping falling back to square one. 

I don't know if this is "Karma" but I surely know that this is me paying for something evil I have done in my past.